Tyler had bronchitis about a week ago, then Andrea got sick, she still is sick and now Tyler has an ear infection.
These things. These situations. These incidents. These infections and sicknesses. They’re all something a human cannot control. If you get it. You get it. When my kids get sick, I try everything. From humidifiers to Vapo rub on the feet, to sliced onions and even soothing gels. I really do try. However, there are things that I just cannot recover from. There are things I have to just let go and pray for. Like when my kids get sick. Even though I try to help them get better and better, if I try too hard or if I don’t listen and try to make it work, my way… I fail. All the time.
When I don’t listen to God and try to make things work out “my way” I always get tempted. I know at the end of the day that I have to listen carefully to what God is saying and listen, but I don’t. That’s why he probably chooses the most extreme method to slap me in the face and say “hey, listen!”.
Now is not the time for you to leave the kids and work.
Now is not the time for you to go out and enjoy life as a working mom.
Now is not the time to meet people and try to get a network of students made.
Now is the time to wait.
Be patient with me. Wait and you’ll see. When the time comes, I’ll make sure everything works out.
I have plans for you. Right now. I just want you to be a mom.
Be a good mom. Do the best you can as a “MOM”, right now.
Forget everything and just be a MOM. That’s what I needed to be. I just needed to be there for my kids and forget everything. Just love them, play with them and make memories. That’s what he wanted me to do. But it took me this long to realize it and get back on track. On his track. Not mine.