When I had Josh, I gained about 13kgs during my whole pregnancy term. When I had Andrea, I gained about 22kgs during my pregnancy. When I had Tyler, I gained about 19kgs. I went from weighing 51kgs to 64kgs, then down to 52kgs to 74kgs, down back to 56kgs then up to 75kgs. I remember looking in the mirror about 3 months after giving birth and just hating my body.
I was just FAT all the time. Well to me, that’s what I felt like. To me, that’s what I looked like when I looked in the mirror. I didn’t want to wear anything that would make me look bigger and I didn’t want to go outside. I didn’t want to do anything. I wanted to give birth to my baby and get my weight down. I was literally obsessed.