It’s been a while since I’ve written anything. Literally, on any platform or notebook. The last few weeks of my life is a total blur. Seriously, I have no idea what happened and how it all happened.
The only thing I can remember is that I am now a personal business owner and that there are still awesome people in this world who really CARE (and are kind and generous and really nice and so on). Last week was literally a roller coaster ride. Bad things came in threes and then my “interviews with teachers” really took off. I was able to concentrate on what questions I wanted to ask and what people were interested in. I also had an Instagram Live with a mom in Jeju island. That went pretty well too.
With all of this going on, I’m still a bit lost. I feel like this is all just my imagination. But it’s not, obviously. I am living on and doing things but I’m doing everything as if I’m not the one doing it. Know what I mean?
I prayed so hard a few weeks ago to hear God’s voice. I wanted to hear him like the people on TV and at worship services. You know the ones that tell their story of “how they heard his voice so clearly.” I also wanted to hear his voice very clearly too. I wanted to be sure, what I was doing and how I was doing it was the right thing to do. I was never sure. I was never certain about the journey of, or the title of an English Consultant. I knew I had talent and that I was good at it. But I really wasn’t sure if I wanted to really BE IT.
So I prayed. I really prayed with everything I had in me. I prayed while walking. I prayed while doing chores and I prayed in between sessions. I prayed to God as if I was just talking to myself. I made sure the connection was always there.
Then, he made me stumble on the song called “The Blessing” by Elevation Worship.
It was the first video that appeared on Youtube, as soon as I opened the app. I knew he was talking to me as soon as I saw it. I cried so much. I felt loved. I felt blessed and I knew God was telling me that everything is okay. It was okay for me to be unsure and that he had my back.
So yes, praying worked. But it only worked for me cause I really really REALLY wanted to hear him.
Then the whole business thing happened, I was typing my information into the blank slots on the website and when I came to my senses, I had a business license and now, I’m doing things I didn’t think I would be doing.
I know sometimes life can be very surprising and that you can feel really unsure about things. BUT, whatever religion you have, meditate or pray about it. You never know what might happen to you.
Just like what I didn’t know in the past few weeks and what happened to me.
Always with love,