I don’t know my path. I honestly don’t know what God has to offer for me in this life. I still don’t know and I am unsure of all the things that he might have planned for me. I do not know if the path and the road that I am walking right now is the right path for me. I do not know if this is the correct thing to do or if it’s what I should be doing. I never did.
Everything always just happened. I never planned it, I didn’t even pray about some of the things and it all just happened. I never actually believed the fact that God has a blueprint for my life. I never actually accepted the fact that he does have plans for me. However, I also never believed that everything I had achieved was done by me. That it was my doing. That it was me who planned everything and did my very best to achieve those things, was never a thought that stuck with me. I knew God was always there to bring me through everything and that God was the one who had guided me in which ever direction I was going. But it was never clearly shown to me. Even up to this day. I still don’t quite know. I am not exactly sure of what it is he is trying to show me. I am still unsure.
But one thing I do know is that he does have me in his hands. That he does have some kind of control over the things that are going on. I am like the pot of basils this picture. Growing and bringing out this wonderful scent of great flavor and tastes but still held in a cup. A cup that is held by God. A cup that is surely not too big or too small, but just the right size for me.
And for me to walk this path right now, I am not sure what it is that’s waiting for me at the end. Or even if there is an end to this road. But I do know that God is leading me that he is guiding me.
Sometimes you want to know exactly what. Sometimes I do too. I want clear answers. But lately, I feel like I don’t need to know. I don’t need to know the whole plan or the whole picture, or the finished image for me to walk this path and take it just one step at a time. Sometimes you can just let the flow of everything carry you on and have a pleasant ride that’s just ok.